I thought long and hard about publishing this post, but in the end, I felt I needed to.
OK, I want to apologize to all those reading this who might be looking for a “good news” story. I already had this week’s post written last Thursday. All positive. All good. Trust me. It will be here later this week. We all need to move on from the sadness of last week. (or so I thought) From the suicides and loss of life. Tragic, emotional, heartfelt. Don’t get me wrong: there have been some incredible posts. Mark Schaefer wrote a couple of gems. And there have been tons of reflection for 9/11. Brandon Sutton just posted another great one.
Then I got the news on Friday that someone I have known for several years, lost her battle with addiction and took her own life. She leaves behind four beautiful daughters and a loving husband.
We were not that close and I hadn’t seen her in a few months, but I always kept up with her and her struggles with addiction. She had a way of lighting up a room. Always smiling, hugging and in a loud southern voice, saying; HI HONEY! Just a sweetheart of a person.
When I got the news on Friday, I had no way of knowing it would affect me so profoundly. I was out running errands and came home an emotional wreck. I have known several people who have taken their own life and my first reaction was always anger. Mad at them. How could they do this? But for this person, I felt extreme sadness. It felt like my heart was breaking for those four girls she left. And then, I have to go to the memorial service for her on 9/11. Are you kidding me? Enough with the sadness and grief, I thought. But, I needed to go. And I did.
I did not think I had that many tears in me. I am not ashamed to say I cried for most of the 90 minute service. Wow. So sad. When those four girls got up to speak, read and cry about their mom, I knew it was gonna be rough. And it was. Tears and more tears.
You see, my friend did not “Get It”. She could not grasp recovery and hold on to it. She lost hope. I have been clean and sober for 12 ½ years. I finally “Got it”. I am so blessed and grateful. Maybe, that’s why I CARE today. Alcoholism and addiction are deadly. It is no joke. It affects a lot of people and I know several people on line who are very familiar with it. Robert Dempsey wrote a great piece back in April. Writing of the benefits of recovery. His latest post on 9/11 was fantastic, also. Check him out. Thanks Robert.
Whatever you are going through today, don’t lose hope. Focus on the good things life has to offer. Cherish your friends and loved ones. Let them know you Care.
Gratitude. “Get It.” Keep It. Embrace it.
OK, enough with the grieving. It is time to motivate, inspire and help improve morale in the workplace, at home and in the world. I promise the post later in the week will be a Positive and uplifting message. Thanks for allowing me to share my pain and true feelings with you.